once i quoted something i read in The Alchemist. "He was going to miss the place and all the good things he had learned. He was more confident in himself, though, and felt as though he could conquer the world." it made sense then, and i really believed it. i was leaving behind everything in my life to serve God for 18 months as a mormon missionary in ecuador, and even though i was going to miss everything so so much, i felt like i was going to conquer the world.
now i feel like missing things doesn't always make me feel like i can conquer the world. now i believe that missing things leaves actual holes in my soul (at least for a while). i sometimes wonder if the reason for those holes is to make me more open to God. maybe if i would actually get good at letting Him fill in those spaces i could get back to conquering the world.
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